Another as the Same

What’s the difference?

Another empty poem, thrown into the bottomless pit of useless creativity

I wouldn’t be surprised if I withered away here, right here, looming over a blank page.

Why do I do it?

I know my fate, I know how this will end, so, why?

Why do I do it?

There’s plenty more artists out there and they possess the same hunger as I, except they also harbour a talent

what a word! Talent.

To harbour a talent

I dream of that, that one word

that one word that seems to tie everything together neatly


that’s what we all want to have but few actually do

so, why do I do it?

What’s the difference?

Another depressed poet screaming into the void of their own thoughts and expecting a reply-

I guess the ego will never leave.


Boxed Open

There’s nothing in this world


nothing for me, at least

it’s not like I’m bothered…

no bother, they’ll be other-

others tell me, they tell me I should feel content

content with the weight of my passing breath

content in the knowledge that I am “something”

but aren’t we all “something”?

Don’t we all breathe?

There’s nothing, nothing in this world that calls to me

that reaches out its arms

and it’s sad-

they all say, it’s sad as though at any second the tears will spring to my cheeks

it’s not sad, it’s the reality I find myself within and it’s not-

I’m tired of talking

tired of trying to explain

I don’t have to explain anything

this world, it offers me nothing

there’s nothing in this world, nothing

nothing that will allow me shelter

but I don’t care, I prefer the cold anyway.

The Industry

What are we waiting for?

What am I waiting for?

Someone to say yes?

For the rejections to loosen their grip and allow praise an hour of its time?

What are you waiting for?

For someone to listen?

We all want someone to listen

but unfortunately

no one wants to listen

except perhaps our mothers


what to do?

We could sit here and wait

many have done that

they waited for god knows how long

they waited


we could just give up

call it a day?

We can joke

we can nugget it under our breath

but that

that’s no real option

this need

this burning sensation that rests in the pits of our stomachs

that’s what’s real

nothing else

no rejections

no amount of praise


nothing could soothe the burn that sleeps within us.

Bed Retreat

The emptiness that woke me today

was an emptiness unlike any other



My bedroom window was hanging open

the breeze rolling in

and opposite

there stood a tree

an old oak tree

and it was waving

each of its arms were waving

pointing at me

and I started to wave back!

I really did!

It was pleasant

for however long it was

it was pleasant

but the emptiness that woke me today

what a vile sensation

like ants crawling up the inside of my leg

I can’t rid myself of it

and I don’t think I have the capacity to even try


to live like this

breathe like this

waving at trees from my bolted window

the faces staring up




If I could just-


eyes closed





Pearl Grey

The pearls dangle around her neck

drape through her fingers

hang from her ears

no matter where they are, the dream always starts the same

with her

with me, watching her

pearls dangling from her neck

pearls dragging across the floor

my bare feet walking on a carpet made of stones

there, that’s the dream

but she

she’s always there, waiting for me

pearls draped through the cracks in her fingers

pearls so bright, my reflection stares back

back into nothing

back into her eyes

but are they eyes?

They look more like pools of black

swirling pools of black

and I want to stare, I really do

I want to stare

I want to look into her soul

but I’m afraid there’s nothing there

nothing but emptiness

empty pools of black

so, I look away

I look away from the blank canvas of yesterday’s memory

as the pearls glimmer, winking in surprise

surprise at my foolishness.

Wings of Edges

I see them

I seem them all

and they’re doing it!

They’re living as though they’re meant to be alive

whilst I-

I don’t know

I couldn’t tell you what I’m doing

I’m breathing


I’m breathing and breathing and-

I’ve had enough

I need to stop-

what is there to stop?

I’m doing nothing

they’re doing everything

everything that I believed I would do

but it’s the truth

it’s true

I’m nothing

nothing special

but I’m breathing

I breathe

I breathe

I breathe

as they-

they’ll jump straight into the clouds and scream of the beautiful view

and I’ll be on solid ground

silently wishing I could fly.

Shatters of Face

I don’t want to suffer in silence

with the silence

I want noise

great, loud noise

that fills my ears with hope

that clings to the walls of my chest

that wakes me from dreaming

I need something…

something louder

something that stirs and forced the silence from my veins

I don’t want anything different

or, at least not too different

comfortable. That’s it! I want to be comfortable, whether that be in silence or in noise

I want to feel as though my body is connected to my mind and my mind, to body

but I’m missing something

there’s something missing

I’ve wasted too much time thinking, instead of doing

and now, there’s nothing I can do

I can’t do anything

but I can think

I can sit within the silence and think

just as any normal soul would do

I’ll think and think and think and-

and pray for violent noise.